the other night i was cleaning the dishes and the thought of my own mortality (and that of my parents) popped into my head, and a little baby tear formed in the corner of my eyes. the kind that lingers there just long enough to slowly trickle down your face; just one tear, that is all.
i am getting older, and sometimes i worry about life's timeline. i never worry about my own though, only those of others around me. like.. will matt live so long that i get to see him grow old? or, will my parents and my in-laws be able to see my children graduate? not in a morbid way, but in a way that i want to really digest these questions so if i am faced with them again one day, they won't smack me in the face and knock the wind out of me. it is true what they say about life's speed; it passes quicker as the years go by. i drink my morning coffee, straighten my bangs, make my 30 minute commute to work, pound away at my desk, take my hour lunch break, go for a run after work, and before i know it another month is passed. it's a wonderful thing, but also sometimes i stop and look at my parents and realize they look and feel completely different than they did ten years ago. or i look at matt and realize how much he has grown since i met him six years ago. do any of you have these same thoughts and realizations?
the last thing i have to say about these kinds of thoughts is that it feels wonderful to have them, but not to dwell on them. the passage of time is a painful and also beautiful thing. i have watched so many of my friends and family accomplish so much in the short amount of years i have been here, and for that i thank you, time. and i am SO excited to see what is in store for the future. i hope you all have a great memorial day weekend! xo
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